It’s been such a long time since I updated this blog.  Tomo-chan got really mad when she visited so I think I’ll have to update. (Gomen, Tomo-chan!)

I guess I should tell you what happened after the match with Horito-san.  I was really surprised because, days after, Ryoma-kun waited for me outside our room.  He told me that we’ll have to start our weekend practices earlier because I was still ‘mada mada dane’.  Then, he was nice enough to offer to walk me home, and that we did, with Ryoma-kun talking a bit about tennis techniques.  Ryoma-kun never talks a lot, so this surprised me, but it was really great having him there.  And listening to him wasn’t a bore – he was pretty animated (well, of course, considering our topic).  I wonder why Ryoma-kun had been nice to me on that day.

Since then, I found our practices more fun.  After our morning training, Ryoma-kun now takes me to a nearby fastfood restaurant.  At first, we both paid for our food, but for some reason, Ryoma-kun insists on paying for us both.  I really wonder why, because it’s so embarrassing to have him pay for me.  Still, it makes me feel all nice and nervous inside.  I kind of like the feeling. Though it’s embarrassing to say this out loud, being with Ryoma-kun makes me so happy.  It’s really nice to have him as a friend (I hope I’m not being to ambitious by calling Ryoma-kun ‘friend’.)

I’m improving on my stance now!  I hope to do better the next time we train, so I won’t disappoint Ryoma-kun again.

I’m ending this here, and I’m sorry that it’s not long enough.  I promise to write more regularly next time.

I’m really so sad today.  I feel bad about writing only when I feel down but I find it so hard to tell others why.  Sometimes, I’m really jealous of people who can just blurt out their problems and feel so better right after.

Today, we had practice matches in the club.  Buchou paired us and had single matches for the three court, and I was against another freshman from Class A, Horito-san.  She’s really nice and loud and a bit aggressive, but she’s very good at tennis.  But still, I felt a bit confident because last Saturday’s practice with Ryoma-kun went so well.

To my surprise, the men’s tennis team were dismissed early, and I saw Momo-sempai with Ryoma-kun by the fences!  It felt really weird having them watching, and I could see Momo-sempai cheering for me and nudging Ryoma-kun, but I wanted to do my best.  Ryoma-kun even tipped his cap up and showed me the stance we were practicing.

BUT BUT BUT!!! MOUUUU!  I CAN’T BELIEVE IT, I DIDN’T EVEN SCORE ONE POINT!!

Not just that, after the match, I didn’t even shake Horito-san’s hand and just ran away!  It was so embarrassing, I felt like dying. T___T I bet Ryoma-kun, buchou and Horito-san are all disappointed with me, but I don’t have the strength to face them at all.

They kept their hopes up for me and I failed them.

Mou, I don’t know if I’ll be able to show my face to them again.

It’s my first time blogging so I really don’t know what to put here.

Mouu.  Tomo-chan has been telling me to start one because, from what she said, I ‘don’t know how to say things out loud’ and she hit me on the head.  And when Tomo-chan hits people on the head, she’s really serious.  She says that blogging is really nice and that I can post anything about anyone I like.  I checked her blog just a few minutes ago and… well, nevermind.  It was… okay, in a sort of… really unique way.

Tomo-chan told me that she’d check on this page later on so here.  I placed something and I know it’s not very good (I have no idea what to put in here!).  I hope I did this right. ;^^